There's a black hole within my chest.
An abyss nestled in my breast.
A constant cloud over my head
From the moment I wake, til bed.
An ache that just doesn't subside
With these thoughts of him by my side.
It nags and gnaws, never leaving.
In a constant state of grieving
For something that was never mine.
Sometimes I pretend that I'm fine.
Sometimes I can ignore this pain.
Today its foremost in my brain.
These damn tears slither down my cheeks
Forced to listen as my heart speaks.
Unable to just let him go.
Forever stuck in this limbo.
Isn't it curious
That the only difference between
Whole
(a thing that is complete in itself)
And
Hole
(an empty place in a solid body or surface)
Is just a little ole "W"?
A tiny little letter.
Four straight lines.
Such contrasting words to be only one letter apart.
One might forget to type the "W"
And suddenly be transformed into a sad thing.
A slightly mad thing.
A not good, but bad thing.
Who knew that this one little letter,
Had so much potential power.
The worst part is my undying hope...
Hope that he'll come back.
Hope that he'll be sitting in his usual spot.
Hope that he'll smile at me, the same way he used to.
There's a black hole within my chest.
An abyss nestled in my breast.
A constant cloud over my head
From the moment I wake, til bed.
An ache that just doesn't subside
With these thoughts of him by my side.
It nags and gnaws, never leaving.
In a constant state of grieving
For something that was never mine.
Sometimes I pretend that I'm fine.
Sometimes I can ignore this pain.
Today its foremost in my brain.
These damn tears slither down my cheeks
Forced to listen as my heart speaks.
Unable to just let him go.
Forever stuck in this limbo.
Isn't it curious
That the only difference between
Whole
(a thing that is complete in itself)
And
Hole
(an empty place in a solid body or surface)
Is just a little ole "W"?
A tiny little letter.
Four straight lines.
Such contrasting words to be only one letter apart.
One might forget to type the "W"
And suddenly be transformed into a sad thing.
A slightly mad thing.
A not good, but bad thing.
Who knew that this one little letter,
Had so much potential power.
The worst part is my undying hope...
Hope that he'll come back.
Hope that he'll be sitting in his usual spot.
Hope that he'll smile at me, the same way he used to.
Here I am again, at rock bottom.
You'd think I'd learn, but I never do.
Let down the walls and you get hurt.
Pretty easy thing to learn.
But, I am so damn stubborn.
I can't even learn something this simple.
Maybe this time, it'll hurt enough to sink in.
Don't let down your walls...
The beast has escaped.
I cautiously approach him,
Each step, slow and deliberate.
He growls and snarls at my approach,
Watching me from the corner of his wild eyes.
Eyes that I hardly recognize, but seem to recognize me.
He makes no move to attack, so,
I take another wary step,
Gingerly reaching my hand out toward him.
I hold it steady,
For what seems like an eternity,
Just waiting...
Finally,
He gives in,
Nuzzling his muzzle into my hand.
Before my eyes,
He transforms from the cornered beast,
Back into a man.
The man that I love with all my heart.
The man that I sometimes have to pull back from the edge.
Because there are times when his b
Stoopid country radio station strikes again...
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=p_IwENcMPOA
She wants to get married, she wants it perfect
She wants her grandaddy preaching the service
Yeah, she wants magnolias out in the country
Not too many people, sa...
Ugh, the radio station at work keeps playing these songs on pretty much repeat. They get me in the fucking feels every time and it's driving me nuts. The gloomy little cloud that comes over me is beyond obnoxious... normally I would have enjoyed thes...
"Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see Him when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved Him too much and you dived too deep"
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enjoy the dark imagery. In the case of some of your pieces I was surprised how much I did enjoy slipping viscerally into the dark corner. Well done all around.